Friday, March 26, 2010
The Core of your Being
Once we know who we are at the core of our being --- then it will become clear who we are NOT. What characteristics do not define you and need to be eliminated? What traits do not coincide with your core identity and need to be changed? What steps must I take to allow my true self identity to be released and able to shine through? What specifically will I work on TODAY that gets me closer to my ultimate goal of understanding who I am at the core of my being?
Sometimes it's difficult to distinguish between WHO I am and WHAT I am. I am not my job. I am not my family (sister, daughter, granddaughter, aunt, cousin, neice). I am not the roles I play (support group leader, source of information on WLS, student, teacher). All those things say what I do but do not define who I am. Maybe making a list of what I am and what roles I play will help me better identify what things should not go on my list for self identity.
These are the questions I'm working through right now. It is something we've discussed in past sessions of Graduate School therapy and dug into more detail last night during the session.
Once we understand fully who we are and what our core identity is, we are better able to face the daily struggles and stresses of life. It will also help us get to the root cause of our morbid obesity (and avoid letting ourselves return to obesity), understand our disfunctional relationships with food and how to fix that disfunction and also give us the tools we need to battle emotional upheaval in our lives when we're faced with it (at least that's what Dr. W. tells us).
I'm putting this out here today to not only give you a peek into what we're dealing with in this therapy session and what's happening inside my head these days. But I'm also sharing this jumble of questions in case you want to work on this project too. It's going to take time and patience with myself, I know. But if I attack it in a methodical way, it's like "eating an elephant" - one bite at a time.