Overdrawn

I'm overdrawn. My emotional bank is in the red because I've been writing too many checks and not receiving enough deposits.

These past couple weeks have been filled to overflowing with obligations, giving support to others, lots of brain work at the office and many other forms of giving, giving, giving. Because of this blog and my involvement on OH and my support groups - there seems to be a lot of demand on my time and resources to give support to others. I'm not complaining. I like to help others and do what I can to support them. But sometimes (a lot of times) I don't balance out all those withdrawals with enough rejuvinating deposits.

It seems like I say this a lot - every couple months or so. Always whining that I'm tired or that I run around too much or that I'm not home enough. I know I say it often and at regular intervals and my regular readers are probably tired of my whining. LOL I've really been trying to take more time for myself lately - like spending the day at the beach three weeks ago was a nice day off for me. But these little days of rejuvination can't be spread out so much. One day every three or four weeks simply isn't enough.

What am I going to do?

Day of Silence. I read an article a few weeks ago in my Yoga magazine about a woman who takes a vow of silence twice a month. Unplug everything -- TV, computer, phone, radio -- and just spend the day in quiet contemplation. She goes about her day as normal but she does it in silence without any outside distractions like books or magazines or electronics.

So I'm going to give a try. I still need to decide what level of "unpluggedness" I'm going to shoot for though. I'll definitely unplug the TV and computer and phone. But I really feel that this type of day needs to be finding things that relax me and give me a boost in my spirit. So spending time with my camera fits into the "boost my spirit" category. Also relaxing on the patio with a good book or magazine is important to me. Quiet meditative music seems to be in too. I'm sure there will be some spa treatments involved -- manicure? pedicure? bubble bath? ... or maybe all three?

Will I be able to do it both Saturday and Sunday? Or is it better to just do one day this first time out? I don't know yet. If this first Day of Silence works for me, I would like to schedule more at regular intervals.

I'll give a report on Monday...

~Pam