Thursday, January 15, 2009

In A Hibernating Emotional Funk

For the past several weeks (since before Christmas) I’ve been in the mood to hibernate. I just want to be home, in my jammies, curled up in my easy chair with a blanket and no responsibilities. I don’t want to go anywhere or do anything or socialize with anyone. It’s winter and it’s cold and I’d love to just take a never ending hot bubble bath or something. I don’t know if this “hiding out” is causing my emotions to go haywire or if my emotions are haywire so I want to hide out. But it seems like I’ve been on the edge for the past few weeks with moodiness. Seems like my patience is gone and I get angry pretty easily. I haven’t been hanging out on the OH forums much lately because I don’t have the patience to deal with the silly questions – normally I’m pretty laid back and try to help folks even if their questions are elementary and something they can figure out with a quick Google search or by reading their post-op instructions from their surgeon. But I’ve found myself getting snippy with people and I don’t like that about myself… so I’ve been staying away for now. I’m not the type of person to cry, but I feel like I’ve been on the edge of breaking down and it won’t take much to push me over. Guess it just feels like I’ve been in a funk and I’m starting to get on my own nerves. I’m taking the advice of Dr. Williams and writing in my Emotional Journal. Just writing about my feelings and why I think I’m feeling those things. It seems to help, but it takes a lot of energy to get it down on paper and really deal with those emotions. I’m doing it anyway. This never ending plateau is getting old too. But that’s a whole other post. I’m sure it’s just the winter season doing it. And I’m sure it’ll pass soon. It’s just all starting to annoy me at the moment.


  1. I'm right there with you! Why do we live in MI??? Seasonal sadness is the pits. I take lexapro, which takes the edge off, but I still feel like I could crawl into bed and never come out.

    Take care!

  2. I broke my golden rule yesterday and went to the tanner - not to get tan but to feel the hot "sun" on my body. I can't believe how much better I felt . . mind over matter . . well I'm not sure. Maybe it is the long winter, but if I have to go to the tanner once a week for the next three months to feel better I'm going to do it. Your not alone with the "wanting to be home feeling" I was very depressed to have to come back to work yesterday after being off a week - I am blessed to have a wonderful job but taking the first three months of the year off to just hang out in my pj's and not leave the house sounds like a great vacation!
    Hang in there and remember your not alone!

  3. It is called SAD seasonal affective disorder... look it up ;-) and BTW light therapy is great for it, so going to the tanning bed DOES help.. :-) Try sitting in the sunniest part of your house this weekend... The first step IS admitting that you have a prob.. You just did.... now get informed.... Seriously!!!!!!!!!!!!


  4. What are the symptoms of seasonal affective disorder during winter?
    People with SAD have many of the normal signs of depression, including:

    decreased levels of energy
    difficulty concentrating
    increase in appetite
    increased desire to be alone
    increased need for sleep
    weight gain

  5. Thank you Shasta. I've known about SAD and think I often deal with most winters (have I mentioned that I hate snow?!).

    Kristy - my gym has a tanning bed that I can use for $1... sounds like motivation to get my butt to the gym.

    Kris - Yeah! Let's move to FL or something! :-)


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