Grouchy & Pissy

Grouchy and Pissy. That pretty much sums up my mood today. I can feel myself being impatient with myself and others and really don't trust myself to be around people today -- I know I'm going to bite someone's head off and end up regretting it later. So I'm making a conscious effort to not interact with people today any more than I need to.

A lot of this is a result of a fight I had yesterday with my best friend. It's patched up, but I'm still feeling like I'm ready to fight some more. But also feeling defeated and beat down because of it. Reminds me of the song by Terri Clark, "I Just Wanna Be Mad."

Another big contributor is that stupid scale. It's not moving, no matter what I do. I know I'm not done losing, I know the scale will move again sooner or later, I know I need to just keep on course and it'll all work out in the end ... my brain knows all that. But the emotions are not communicating with the brain right now and the frustration and exasperation is setting in big time.

Also feeling especially single these days. But I won't get into that cuz it'll just get me down even more.

As I've said before, I'm an "emotional non-eater." I don't eat when I'm in a mood like this. Which is just as bad as over eating. So I'm being aware of that trait and trying to not let it get the best of me today.

So yeah... this WLS journey thing, it's not always sunshine and roses. Life still happens and some days you just want to hide under the covers and not face the day. But life goes on and you have to deal with it.

~Pam