Rebellion

Hi, my name is Pam and I'm a rebel. It's a personality trait in me that I don't really like very much.  Well... I do kind of like it in some areas of my life, but when it comes to WLS and following rules, being a rebel is a very bad thing. 

Right now I'm going through another bout of rebellion.  (My last big one was a year ago.) I say that I'm in the midst of it because right now I don't really feel like stopping my bad behavior even though I know I need to. So I'm putting it here - out to the world and outloud for myself - in the hopes I can kick my own butt on the matter.

I'm not taking my vitamins like I should.  I take some doses, but not all.  (My dropping Vitamin D level seems to be payment for my stubbornness.) I'm not drinking enough water - although I've done better in the past couple days, but 2 days doesn't fix things, does it?  I'm eating too much crap and not even bothering to try and justify it. I continue to get all my protein in, but I'm being lazy about cooking and just doing protein coffees more often than not.  I'm not exercising regularly... in fact, we could call it a rare occurrance when formal exercise enters my day.

See... full out rebellion.  And I'm starting to piss myself off about it. 

So there you go. There's my dirty laundry laid out on the curb for all to see and ponder. I'm not proud about it so don't get the impression that I'm bragging.  But I've committed to being honest here on my blog and share the good with the bad.  So here it is... the big bad ugly truth about my stupidity.  I'm disgusted with myself but apparently not enough to make the changes just yet.  Maybe saying it out loud will make me want to behave.  We'll see.

~Pam