Don't let doubt stand in the way

Christine Kane sings songs and makes CD’s and has concerts and stuff. She also has an amazing blog that I’ve been reading for a couple months. I stumbled across her blog in one of those roundabout ways – some site links to another site which links to someone else’s site until you eventually find your way to an amazing place you want stick around for a while and explore. And all the time I’ve been reading her blog, I’d never even heard any of her songs. (I think I’ll remedy that today, though).

Today Christine wrote about doubt. Self-doubt to be exact. The type of doubting that paralyzes us and prevents us from reaching for our dreams. Something she said really struck a cord with me and I wanted to share it with you.

We’re scared to face the grief that might arise when we realize how we’ve put off our dreams for so long. We make our desires out of reach because we’re scared to begin. We’re scared to realize that all this time it has been possible to take action to reach these goals and dreams. Begin with baby steps. Doubt will still show up and demand faster progress or bigger rewards. But the goal is not to appease or even to get rid of doubt. The goal is to take action and fumble in the general direction of happiness in spite of doubt.

What is standing in the way of your dreams?
~Pam

Sleep, Weddings and Friends

Sleep Study ... it's been scheduled for the evening of May 23rd. I have to arrive at 8:30 p.m. and will be released the following morning around 6:30. They are sending an information packet. I can't help but wonder what in the world I'm going to do between 8:30 and the time I normally go to bed around 11:00. I'll keep you posted. Maid of Honor ... my sister is getting married and has asked me to be the maid of honor. We went dress shopping last week (bridesmaid dresses, that is). I gotta tell ya - nothing can make a fat girl feel even fatter than trying on bridesmaid dresses. There were exactly 3 dresses in the entire store that were in my size and all of them were basically the same. I feel bad for my sister because the dress she originally picked out doesn't come in my size. I hate to be the cause of her disappointment. Friends ... who knew that I would come to enjoy having girlfriends. Ha! I'm normally a loner and tend to distance myself from people. I rarely make very close friends or even casual acquaintences. Why? Who knows. But that seems to be changing now that I've found myself in the midst of the WLS arena. The women I've gotten to know through our monthly support group meetings are amazing and I've come to think of them as my friends. Our next meeting is coming soon (next week) and I'm already looking forward to connecting with them again. It makes me happy. More later... ~Pam